” Spill blood on my behalf. I’ll do the same for you. “
Dream Journal: November 27, 2012
I’ve always meant to post this, even before I decided to do the Dream Journal series on my blog. It just felt very odd and unusual, and I’ve always held back on it since the artwork did leave a few people speechless or unsettled. Considering what I’ve dreamt in the past few years and recent events, I believe I’m comfortable to share this after sitting in my Drafts for almost 5 years.
This is one of the longest dream journals and breakdowns I’ve ever done so far, so please bear with me. I didn’t want to leave any stone unturned, and I call upon a lot of past experiences and memories. So maybe grab a coffee for this one.
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Original Dream Date: November 27, 2012
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I was in Randolph, living in apartment which had been renovated like Mass Effect. I somehow meet Yorina, and end up going to a hospital. I don’t know if this was because someone was hurt, but it could’ve been that she’d been called there.
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Dream Journal – October 2009
There aren’t a lot of dreams I remember from the first part of my life. A few of them are scatterbrained, a lot of them are more of a feeling than actually remembering a few details. This was one of them, and it turns out was a deep reflection on what was actually going on inside of me.
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These specific dreams started after the summer of 2009. I’d get them about once a month, although in September I got them weekly. They continued all the way up to the spring of 2010. I believe I had it once in 2011, and a few times in 2012. I occasionally have this dream in varying degrees up to this day, but they’re very few and rare between.
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The concept was simple. I’m either be in bed or by myself someplace, and my cell phone would ring. The Caller ID would show someone’s name that I’d know, and I’d just answer the phone. All but once there’s silence on the other end, and I’d wake up in real life vocally going “Hello?”
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Heather in Wharftown
When the pandemic started, I had started to do a project where my Heather universe would be involved in crossovers. These were mostly for fun, and to let people experience my world in a way. Generally, it was someone else’s character getting teleported in to explore about.
Up to date, I still have three of them to finish, mostly due to some illnesses and a lack of actual writing. But after recently revisiting the deviantART community, I came across a curious piece from a user that goes by CapnDeek373. We’ve ran into each other before via comment exchanges, and this was why I had ended up at his creation. A joke was laid out about Heather mucking about his setting, and that led up to this tale.
This one is unique as it involves Heather visiting another setting, which is not the usual direction I take these tales. The setting’s appropriate for her to check out, and lines up with a lot of the story beats I typically try to have her involved in (typically something horror and exploration related). CapnDeek’s pieces line up with a surreal, mysterious and eldritch vibe; that just adds to that appeal even more.
Be sure to check out his deviantART, where he does do frequent updates on his world. Do pay homage at the piece that made this crossover tale spawn into being as well, which is aptly titled shot room #1.
Without further adieu, here’s said tale. Enjoy!
Ellowwood Town Center, Cotley’s
Approximately 3PM
YTD 334, 26th day of the 4th month
“I thought Mom said you were going to go on an adventure,” Janus complained.
Heather exhaled in a huff, unhooking her thumbs in her suspenders.
“I told her I was going to meet Caroline at Cotley’s. Maybe she thinks it’s an adventure for you.”
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Storytime – 2016 Holidays Nostalgia
As 2023 starts to roll around, I’ve done lots of self-reflection on myself. A lot of it has to do at a milestone point of my life, the winter of 2016. A lot of good and bad things happened that year; and while there was that swirling torrent of negative things that were going on, there were a few bright lights that made me look ahead and see something beyond that.
Mostly I looked at how my life could’ve gone different, and actually did have a ton of regrets with a lot of things. But, I found myself still coming back and thinking about those few positives that happened in that season.
Why am I mentioning this seven years later?
I think that’s exactly it; just time passing by, and still trying to sort out where I want to go in the future. And then you look back at happened, remember some things and wonder what’s going to happen to all of that. Moreso, what’s happening to all the things in my head that I don’t share with people.
To just preface, I don’t go around and say “I’m going to make this for people online to see!” I do keep quite a lot of things to myself, either for my own enjoyment or to share in person. But when 7+ years go by and you’ve not shared these things with a single soul, I do step back and wonder if there’s any value of those experiences to put in the public space. A lot of the time they do get censored and filtered to leave the interesting bits, protect privacy, etc.
I think that cycle does have to do with me aging and reflecting, for sure. Maybe that’s musings for another day; but today, I’m here to actually share something from that databank of memories.
Your late Christmas 2022 present is what my space was, several tunes and some munchies from the period.
read more…Stray 01 – Not a Walking Simulator
Shoutout to Robuster and my sister for coordinating getting me this as a gift, under the pretense to do a playthrough of it. Which is fine by me, let’s get that done.
Not a fan of the Zurk parts, had a small rough edit because I kept failing several times. Why? Left Alt and Shift brings up Windows functions; so I had to remap the “Meow” key to something else. Succeeded on the 2nd try afterwards.
I would’ve put this out earlier, but I’m behind on actually getting content queued with IRL things. But I got some pretty nifty presents, and needed to get it warmed up with a modern game. So here we are.
Clients From Hell is Gone
On December 8, 2021, ClientsFromHell.net announced that they’ll close their doors due to a lack of traffic. As quoted:
Dear CFH readers,
It’s been a long ride since our first post back in 2009. We admit we’re not getting the audience we used to, but we’re grateful you’ve been with us this far and we’re not done yet! We’re moving to NotAlwaysRight.com so that we’ll be able to continue sharing new and classic stories for more years to come. While CFH won’t look the same anymore, we hope you’ll give our new home a chance.
See you there!
-ClientsFromHell
While this may be sad to some, there were some users who had issues with their site; I being one of them. It comes down to one cardinal sin:
Heavy editing and rewriting of the submissions to match their vision.
read more…Wayc Birthday Gift 2021 – Art Process
Found footage of a gift I drew for Wayc back in 2020, so pushing this up there to show you guys. I’d say this is one of the first moments I started doing full eyes on figures again, so that’s a milestone. This is half-adoptable Ki’voosh, which is a bug girl from a few of my writing settings.
If you’re wondering about the left field choice of music, Ki’voosh’s outfit was based off of this video; hence the nod-off to it: 【晚香玉】- Ma Baker (full dance video)
You can see the original piece here!
Original piece done May 27, 2021.
Jennifer – Lunar Empyrea – Art Process
Video art process for Lunary Empyrea is finally out!
I really love featuring this redhead OC of mine, usually in writing pieces. It’s not often I do artwork featuring her, maybe that’ll change as time goes on.
I had a lot of video errors when capturing the footage, including a lot of unwanted notifications and the software cutting out later in the process; so some of the overall progression is lost, and there’s a privacy bar on the right. Apologies!
You can see the original piece here.
Original piece done January 31, 2022.
Jennifer – Lunar Empyrea
So recently I’ve been in a mood with my art, and usually that does result in me coming up with genuine stuff that I’m feeling. This was the result of some Gradius music, upcoming Valentine’s day and some IRL experience when dealing with people where I live.
This is that recurring redhead character in some stuff I write, although I don’t draw her often. I decided with all of that going on to draw her in my new style, and push it a little further this time.
I suppose you can also call it a continuation of a piece I did when the pandemic was in full swing, but yeah, there you go.
Outfit credit is the acclaimed Azure Empyrea from Honkai Impact.
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My name's Janeil.
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Moonlight game dev, creative writer, sharing my personal experiences.